i’m allergic to seafood especially crustaceans. but i try to eat a morsel every now and then just to test fate and to defy my biological boundaries/restrictions. but all i get, really, is an itchy tongue and slight difficulty of breathing. it’s tolerable.

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i only talk if i’m being talked to. rule of thumb: if you don’t ask me or talk to me, i don’t talk to you. it’s simple and economical. i don’t waste my time trying to reach out to somebody who doesn’t want to talk (believe me, i’ve tried “reaching out” before but i really haven’t had much success or positive response) and it saves a lot of saliva. this is probably why people take me for a snob. the reality is: if someone starts talking to me (and i see that that person’s genuinely interested in what i have to say), i DO say something in return. i say a lot of things even… depending upon where the conversation is leading to.

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gossip is like a staple activity for mankind. and contrary to popular belief, it’s not an activity that is attributable solely to women. a lot of guys out there are even worse than housewives congregating for their usual dose of the good stuff. and i find that there’s nothing wrong with gossip primarily because it’s just too much a part of our lives. it’s what keeps things interesting.

i, for one, have sworn that i wouldn’t engage in gossip. i’ve learned the hard way that it only breaks down relationships and trust. but as a human being, i just can’t help but listen. i mean, you can’t block it off. you can’t keep your ears shut off from news/gossip because it’s always there, in all shapes/forms.

i guess it’s what’s we do with what we hear that makes all the difference. if we select what we believe and we can determine what’s plausible or factual from what’s made up or if we don’t judge/generalize then there’s really nothing wrong with gossip after all. but if we use gossip to wrong people or if we believe gossip to the point of perceiving it as the truth, and if we propagate this “truth,” then we will have become rumor mongers.

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time is fast and i’m too slow to keep up.  i feel like i’m being left behind. and it’s all my fault. if only i’d listened to my folks, this would never have happened. but i was too rebellious. i wanted to make my own decisions and wanted to make mistakes. and i guess i got what i wanted. i did this to myself and there’s nobody to blame but me.

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bow.