Aug
08

tfc

Filed Under (buhay narsing., dear diary...) by fueledbymaruchanramen on 08-08-2009

 

I just talked to my mom over the phone this morning and she said it’s hard for her to find another job in the US. 

About 9 months ago, I told her to leave one of her jobs because I wanted her to have some time for herself.  I’m almost sorry that I did that. Because right now, I don’t have a job and my mom’s and Glen’s combined income isn’t cutting it for us.  I’m almost sorry that I left Sykes to take the NCLEX.  I’m almost sorry that I didn’t push through with the job application in Taguig and/or Ortigas.  I’m sorry that I didn’t crawl on the floor and beg the HR personnel from St. Luke’s to take me…

I told her, “Ma, ‘di mo na kailangang humanap ng isa pang trabaho…  May job opening sa Taguig. Okay lang ba sayo na mag-call center uli ako?”

She told me (and I could tell she wasn’t amused), “Call center na naman?”

I said, “Eh walang ibang choice, Ma.  Freeze hiring ang mga hospitals ngayon…”

She said, as if imploring, “Wag na. Unahin mo na yang mga trainings mo. Handa naman akong magsakripisyo para lang makapag-training ka eh.  Mag-training ka na muna para kapag nakaalis ka, ready ka na, okay?”

I tried to choke back the tears welling up in my eyes because she’ll hear it in my voice and she can’t know how I’m feeling.  She won’t be able to sleep if she knows I’m worrying about her again.  But to no avail… the tears just fell.  What can I do eh mababaw luha ko?

With a little shakiness in my voice and with my hand over my eyes, I told her, “Sige po, Ma. (Pause)… Magte-training po ako, hwag kayong mag-alala.”

Then a looong pause. I asked, “Ma?  Nandiyan ka pa ba?”

She said, “Ah oo, nasa trabaho ako.  Nanonood lang ng ‘The Wedding’ sa TFC.”

Thank God for TFC.  Because of it, my mom was a bit distracted and she didn’t notice.  If she had noticed, I would have cried all the way.

“Sige, Ma. Manood ka na. He he…”

 



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